Demi Moore is spilling all the tea in her new tell-all memoir.
The 56-year-old actress gets real in her new autobiography, titled Inside Out, and she didn’t hold back when talking about her substance abuse struggles, her heartbreaking childhood, or her famous exes.
While she dug into all three of her marriages, to Freddy Moore from 1980 to 1985 and then Bruce Willis from 1987 to 2000, it is her third marriage to Ashton Kutcher from 2005 to 2013 that seems to have had the biggest impact on her.
In the memoir, Moore reveals some seriously intimate details about her marriage to the former That ’70s Show star.
It’s been a while since they were together, but you likely remember that the relationship between Kutcher and Moore was constantly being written and speculated about, thanks to their 15-year age gap. But Moore’s book makes that all seem much less scandalous when compared to what she wrote about what really happened during their marriage.
Moore and Kutcher started dating in 2003, after having met at a dinner with mutual friends, and were married in 2005. But during that marriage is when Moore seemed to lose herself, writing in her book that she “went into contortions to try to fit the mold of the woman he wanted his wife to be.” She even broke her 20-year sobriety during the marriage.
According to Moore, Kutcher pushed his fantasy of a threesome, and she didn’t say no. “I wanted to show him how great and fun I could be,” she said. But even though the others they brought into the relationship were “good people,” she said it still left her with feelings of shame, and she still thinks it was a mistake.
Moore also blames those threesomes for Kutcher’s infidelity.
In her memoir, she claims that Kutcher told her that letting those threesomes occur blurred the boundaries of their marriage, and he used it to justify his cheating. It was after she discovered his affair in 2011 that the pair separated. They finalized the divorce in 2013.
While trying to cope with the pain of her failed marriage, Moore spiraled out of control. She started abusing substances like alcohol and Vicodin. Her three daughters–Rumer, Scout, and Tallulah–stopped speaking to her. It was after she was rushed to the hospital for suffering “what seemed like seizures” that she was finally checked into Cirque Lodge, which is considered one of the best inpatient rehab centers in the country.
These days, Moore says that she is grateful for her time with Kutcher, saying “Whatever pain we went through together enabled both of us to grow into the people we are today.”
Demi Moore’s revealing memoir hit store shelves September 24th.