“My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone,” wrote Vanessa Bryant yesterday on Instagram. It was part of a lengthy tribute about her feelings over losing her husband, Kobe Bryant, and their daughter, Gianna, on January 26 to a helicopter crash. Seven others also passed away in the tragic accident.

Since the helicopter wasn’t equipped with a black box, the official cause of the crash remains unknown. Foggy conditions played a role since other aircraft in the area had been grounded as a result of bad weather.

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Vanessa Is Trying to Stay Strong for Her Other Daughters

In the touching tribute, Vanessa says that she wants to be a strong example to her three other daughters. “Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi, but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka, and Capri,” she wrote.

The full text of her tribute can be read here:

“I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong.

Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka, and Capri.

I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God, I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.”

 

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I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.

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